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The Truth As I See It

by blurrybynature

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Tristan A courageous exploration into uncharted soundscapes, composed with painstaking care and detail; and one just as delicate and tender as it is bleakly nihilistic.

Favorite track: Care.
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1.
PORTRAITS [THE CONCEPT OF HOME] A quiet sadness sets with the sun As we travel through evening's dusk The luminous grey seeps into our hearts Like water in my lungs It steals my breath And your words Wither in the sun Flower of your love For now, but not for long I'll line these walls with dreams And hope Whispers in your ear, Drowned out by the wind in your hair I don't wanna be here any more Any more... For now, but not for long I'll line these walls with dreams And hope And Portraits Of you, my Concept of Home A moment's silence for The times we can't share But true love waits.
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Don't Be So 02:23
DON'T BE SO Could've had it all Everything they ever told me I should want Four walls, adorned with fine taste Love's fake "Better settle or you'll never get better Elsewhere's just a myth, don't be so selfish End this hedonistic deathwish you find yourself in Time and time again... what the fuck's in your head?" Warm embrace at the door to my prison cell Private Hell But Hell doesn't look like they told me... Hell doesn't look like what they told me It sneaks up on you and becomes your way Brutality's familiar way Bleak days Colder than the nights you lie awake Wondering...
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Selfish 04:12
SELFISH Will I make it out of this place? I can't believe this prison cell used to feel like home An escape from my mind, Yeah I built these walls from blood and stone 'Til they consumed me And I've become the devil I don't know Feels so familiar, but that don't make it home No, it don't make it home No, it don't make it home... These four walls once kept me warm at night But the shelter they provide casts shade And it's crawling down my spine And now it's time Yeah, it's time to be selfish To save my life My life... Hell doesn't look like what they told me It sneaks up on you and becomes your way Brutality's familiar way Bleak days Colder than the nights you lied.
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Care 05:03
CARE Wired, and off my head Every fiber of my being is stretched So thin She says, "You're begging for a heart attack" And I don't even care No, I don't care I don't even... Fuck. Wired, and off my head I can feel the strain on my heart starting to tell Fucked up beyond recognition This isn't who I thought I'd be I'm falling apart at the seams But I thrive on the pain It's become so familiar It's ink on the page Again, and again She said "I care too much" I said, "I can't see the point in anything now" Unconditional love called my bluff Hypocrite...
5.
Less 03:34
LESS I watched you sink into the chemical low Over and over Drained you like blood from a needle I watched you sink into yourself More, and more, and more To become less, again and again... When did you learn to keep your soul in a vessel? I watched you sink into yourself, and fade away My love never faded, But you were careless with yours Our hearts once beat as one But now you only open up to the poison My love never faded But you were careless with yours...
6.
GHOST IN THE CORNER Take everything from me The love I found, my family And all the beauty of the world I never got to see Just justify this feeling So I can stop feeling guilty 'Cause I know I've got it all In the palm of my hand But the hole in my chest Has got other plans for me Why do I just keep fucking sinking? Sinking... I'm learning to live with your Ghost in the Corner And I still feel you there But it's better than the nights you lived inside The months you claimed my mind The years I called you mine And I made a thousand plans Just to watch them fall apart in my hands Envisioned the shade to rise up from within And take over my life, like original sin Nowhere to run to, nowhere to hide When you truly believe the ghost lives inside your mind Yeah, I felt the pain as a reflection of self So I searched for escape in a vessel I always blame myself.
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PICTURE FRAMES I'm hanging dreams and hope on the walls But the nightmares, they're in my head Been in there a lot lately Four years, if I'm honest Finally found the resolve to find some help I walked right up to the gates of my private hell And the view was beautiful But the gates were closed, And I can't climb them on my own Yet somehow all I want is to be alone I'm locked in a paradox, But I refuse to die here Refuse No, I won't Rip a hole in existence, and crawl right through Into the souls left behind Into their bloodshot eyes Into their picture frames No, I won't be their pain.
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Arteries 04:29
ARTERIES There is no time Only you and I Four walls and a broken hope of home On my mind from day one Until the breaking point Your beauty so cruel and wonderful If you let me, I'll take it all Ten grams right to the myocardium I long to feel The arteries burst through my chest I'll be a place to rest your head And I know I could've been a better man But I'm so tired of hiding everything that I am... ...could you understand? Your beauty so cruel and wonderful If you let me, I'll take it all Your beauty consumes me You're all that I can see And here now, all I feel Is everything Take me home.
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Continent 03:30
CONTINENT Exposed; the skin that could never tell The worth of her soul Hidden beneath, like the blood that flows Priceless and warm, the embrace I know Forever I'll trace these arteries Like the road back home Fragile forevers in our hands tonight With a love that punctures this cavernous chest Through the cold nights that cradle my head Nothing but time, and a continent 'Til I can hold you again As broken glass and crystal hearts Refract the fading light Everything I am, is yours, my love My love.
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STILL LIFE [GOES ON] [Instrumental]
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LOVE WHAT'S LEFT Bleed out the misery Don't mind me, I'm just a human being difficult A walking corpse burdened by thought No I'm not falling, this is just a return Return to form I'll bleed out the misery 'Til you can learn to love what's left of me A masterpiece of hypocrisy Yeah, I've got the world at my feet But it feels like it's on my shoulders Oh darling, I've been devoured from the inside So here's a rose for you, for every night that I lied In your arms, In my head, All was calm But it's gone now And I know I swore to keep the dark at bay But I lied to you every day Yeah I told you "I'm fine" through grinding teeth And I can't sleep I can't sleep But I'm craving something more complete Craving something more com...

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released August 18, 2018

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